Today is 20th of October… just a normal autumn day, sunny, cold and colorful. It also happens to be monday, that means it is not so much my favorite day of the week but I am trying to recover from my depression and I am not going to think about those details… I went late at work as I had some “technical” problems in the morning aka I woke up too late… I went by foot as I was too late to catch the bus. I am happy I was wearing my new boots and that it felt so much fun to walk all the way to the “office”. You see I can not be serious about this job, I can not feel like a career person, at least I can not do that in here. So, I know my problems, I just can not figure a way of solving them, I mean, I did my part, now it is just a matter of time and good luck, fingers crossed.
I am happy, not as happy as I could be but I am ok. I rather be in the center, drinking a coffee and admiring the city but I am here and it’s ok too. I woke up with such a nostalgic sensation about one October 2 years ago… it was the October that never ended lolll. I was in Ostrava, with no friends, no money, no desire to be there what so ever, I used to go in the park near my home and write in my diary and every time the date was x/y October at some point I was really confused as I was feeling that it will never end :).
Today I am dreaming of snow, Christmas lights, hot chocolate and a walk in the city’s streets. I miss a good time with some of the persons I used to go out, aka my friends from Ostrava… I remember the pubs where we used to spend the nights, I remember going to shopping for Christmas presents :), the fights in the snow, the “a delicious thing” after dinner, the tea with milk, the movie nights, the pizza we used to cook and eat in the bed etc etc :). It was awesome and I know we can not go back there because we will never have nor the time nor the place to do all of those but I will keep in my heart everything forever. I can only hope I will be able to do that with other persons :) and something is telling me it might just be possible :P.
In the mean time I am having the travel disease lolll I want to travel somewhere new like never :) it just feels like I could go home pack some things (perhaps less than I usually do) and just go somewhere to some of my friends and stay there for a week or something.
So I can hardly wait for the winter to come, I Santa will bring me a trip trip trip to an unknown destination :). The only important thing is the company :)
That’s about it for today… I have left one and a half hours and I am looking forward in eating a Kinder cookie :) like I said to my friend last night: 28 grams of pleasure :P
I am happy, not as happy as I could be but I am ok. I rather be in the center, drinking a coffee and admiring the city but I am here and it’s ok too. I woke up with such a nostalgic sensation about one October 2 years ago… it was the October that never ended lolll. I was in Ostrava, with no friends, no money, no desire to be there what so ever, I used to go in the park near my home and write in my diary and every time the date was x/y October at some point I was really confused as I was feeling that it will never end :).
Today I am dreaming of snow, Christmas lights, hot chocolate and a walk in the city’s streets. I miss a good time with some of the persons I used to go out, aka my friends from Ostrava… I remember the pubs where we used to spend the nights, I remember going to shopping for Christmas presents :), the fights in the snow, the “a delicious thing” after dinner, the tea with milk, the movie nights, the pizza we used to cook and eat in the bed etc etc :). It was awesome and I know we can not go back there because we will never have nor the time nor the place to do all of those but I will keep in my heart everything forever. I can only hope I will be able to do that with other persons :) and something is telling me it might just be possible :P.
In the mean time I am having the travel disease lolll I want to travel somewhere new like never :) it just feels like I could go home pack some things (perhaps less than I usually do) and just go somewhere to some of my friends and stay there for a week or something.
So I can hardly wait for the winter to come, I Santa will bring me a trip trip trip to an unknown destination :). The only important thing is the company :)
That’s about it for today… I have left one and a half hours and I am looking forward in eating a Kinder cookie :) like I said to my friend last night: 28 grams of pleasure :P
Kisses!!!
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Hello my friend
I was reading your post and i was starting to be so nostalgic from these good times in Ostrava...
It was soo good....and i know that it will be for ever...
Thank you for everything
GR
ok..so we all have times we cherish but eating pizza, watching a movie
shopping?? basically just hangin' out with friends ain't gon' do it for me..don't get me wrong..I am really glad you had movie nights and ate pizza in bed..but unless you stabbed some one 22 times just because he/she pissed you off there in ostrava and now you're hiding from the law while working a low key job, you obviously don't care much about,it's just plain boring..it's as much fun as a sock full of toe nail clippings..like watching paint dry on the wall..if you wanna keep a diary, do it the old fashioned way..ps: good luck with your boyfriend..and when you feel hopeless again remember that it's always the darkest just before the sun comes up :)
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