I’ve changed the face of my blog :) I am so proud iiiiiiiiiiiii as I used to do with the love of my life :P… last night we stayed up until 1 o’clock in the morning and we talked and talked… I just love him, I know I do. He is like everything I ever wanted and I feel so good when he’s around me, it’s like this perfect feeling of warmth, butterflies in my stomach, quiet, smiley faces, little pink hearts around my head like in the cartoons lolllll… I fell all that when I’m with him and only then. It doesn’t matter we are now worlds apart, it doesn’t matter I am depressed, the only thing I know is that I live for the moment when he will be back to me, when he will touch me and kiss me. I need this love to be real as I can not imagine my world without him. I see myself capable of being with him till the end, I really do. And he’s the first I feel like this for. I never imagined I will fall so deep with someone and yet I am amazed by every moment that we spent together. I want to go to Venice with him, I want to visit all the places we want together, I want to cook for him, to have a romantic dinner in the middle of nowhere, I want to be happy with him and to make him smile every day.
This isn’t a declaration of my love or anything, just some thoughts through my mind in this autumn lonesome day. I woke up so dizzy today I could barely reach the bathroom :))… I used the robot style again, thank god my mind is awake,,, only my body is numb and tired, my mind could go on for days.
I am fighting the unknown everyday and still feel like I have no chance. I feel small and not so confident in the future nor in me, I hope by Christmas I will be more positive. In the mean time I just want to get a normal job, more money… but most of all I want him to come back to me, so we can be together and happy like we always have been. I can’t wait for December to come. Ohhh I
miss the snow, the lights, the snowflakes, the kisses and the loving. I can only imagine one winter night spent in his arms and I am totally happy :), that’s all I need now.
Talking about reality now… I am 45 minutes away from freedom, I can’t wait to get home and have a bath, after that massage and then a movie, perfect ending for the day.
“You're breaking your mind by killing the time that kills you, but you can't blame the time 'cause its only in your mind.”
This isn’t a declaration of my love or anything, just some thoughts through my mind in this autumn lonesome day. I woke up so dizzy today I could barely reach the bathroom :))… I used the robot style again, thank god my mind is awake,,, only my body is numb and tired, my mind could go on for days.
I am fighting the unknown everyday and still feel like I have no chance. I feel small and not so confident in the future nor in me, I hope by Christmas I will be more positive. In the mean time I just want to get a normal job, more money… but most of all I want him to come back to me, so we can be together and happy like we always have been. I can’t wait for December to come. Ohhh I
miss the snow, the lights, the snowflakes, the kisses and the loving. I can only imagine one winter night spent in his arms and I am totally happy :), that’s all I need now.Talking about reality now… I am 45 minutes away from freedom, I can’t wait to get home and have a bath, after that massage and then a movie, perfect ending for the day.
“You're breaking your mind by killing the time that kills you, but you can't blame the time 'cause its only in your mind.”
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